Do what you love. I've heard that many times but never really let it sink in. I used to be so wrapped up in what I thought everyone else wanted me to do and who to love rather than really tapping into my own wants and needs. I used to think it was just my nature to put others feelings ahead of mine but I ran outta gas so to speak. I learned the only way to serve and help others was to first do exactly that for myself first and foremost. Scary thought, I may just have to say NO or ask for a different option that will better serve me, but oh how dare I not be happy with what's just given to me.
Each person that has made their way into my life has served me such purpose once I finally realized it. Each activity I've "signed" up for or participated in has served me purpose. But the one thing I never allowed myself to do was yoga. I mean I've taken some classes here and there, college physical education credits, and the DVDs you get with your higher impact exercise sets, over the course of a few years but nothing really consistent. I don't think I ever wanted to make it anything more than a physical exercise. I only wanted to do insane very high impact workouts that seemed out of my mind. That's the only way I felt I would "get results". Yoga never "really did it for me". Until the recent past. I'm so thankful for my yoga practice. Things that have happened to me just very recent had left me devastated. Except this time something so life changing occurred and I'm able to let it go. Learning more about myself, meditating on each part of my true being has allowed me to overcome not only negative feelings in the now but also to let go of the past.
I have taken my yoga practice to my own back porch. I have journaled my progress.
I am humbled. Its a true transformation. I have expanded a circle of friends. I am grateful and thankful to participate, to get out of my comfort zone on a daily basis. Everybody copes differently. Today I choose to work through the struggle and i''ll start with downward dog :)
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